Here we go.

January 17... found out my body has some sort of issue. I was with William when I found out.  I was still pretty sad. 

January 27 I'm going to start taking Provera so that my body will "reboot".  This is for 10 days. 

Day 3 of my cycle I will start Clomid.  Hopefully this will be around Feb. 8-9.  

We will see what happens.

I stopped my birth control at the end of June.  It was at the end of one of my packages of birth control.  We had been talking about starting to try.  Or I'd been talking about it and William had been listening.  I was so afraid that it would take us a long time for us to have a baby. We decided it would be a good time just to stop preventing it.

First Post

I need to write down how I'm feeling about this whole baby or should I say "no baby" thing.  I know it's all going to work out in God's timing... but this is turning into a pretty painful process.

I need a place to hang my worries on the door. One day I want to be able to look back and be so grateful for this process and everything I learned.

Only 3 people currently have access to this blog.  William, Dana, and Jonna.  William asked me not to blog about it... but I hope that privately blogging about it is okay.  I figure Dana and Jonna know everything anyways... so it can't hurt for them to access to it.  One day down the road it might become public but for now it's just my personal outlet.